Hello, Dear Reader. I am a rarity to this blog, but I have come to share with you some truths of Wisdom which I have gleaned.
Last Summer, I found myself in a particularly tough place in regards to dating relationships. The person I was with for a period of three months was someone of immoral character and rebellion. He was a wolf in sheep’s clothing, so to speak, and I, being the naïve woman looking for a nice and caring fellow, fell into the trap of enticement.
During the last couple of weeks of my relationship, I was interested in reading Scripture, but it was rooted in how I wanted to prove to my parents that this person I spent time with was worth the time I had invested. I began to read through Proverbs for a short time, but once my relationship ended I began to have a bitterness fester within my heart due to some underlying problems with self-image and self-value.
I have always hated the possibility that one day I would live up to my middle name which means “bitterness,” yet that is exactly what I had become: a bitter young woman, full of rebellion against my upbringing. I spent a majority of my time during the last half of last year and the first part of this year in hate and corruption of the mind and heart, and the worst part was that I knew exactly how to remedy that pain I put myself through.
In a paper I wrote at the beginning of this semester, I stated:
“I know that God is real and loving and forgiving; I know with all certainty that He wants me to come to Him. Even so, I do not want the help that He has to offer my wounded and rotting spirit. I do not want to muster up the courage it takes to allow Him to scrape the putrid rot from my soul, just as a doctor must scrape and clean a burn victim. I do not want the comfort that He sends me through the gracious acts of others as they hold me and speak life into my heart. I do not want what I need. I want my own efforts to win over. Never have I understood so clearly how a dying man fights for his last breath – until now. I know that God is real, but I would rather trust my fingernails for security.” – The Strength of My Own Fingernails
Now, as I am recovering from this season of life, I can look at Scripture again with a refreshed mind and soul. Here is what I have learned from Proverbs 2:
- A protector via discernment (v. 3)
- A saving grace from wicked people (v. 12-19)
- Something which only comes from the Lord (v. 6)
- Something which must be sought out (v. 1-5)
- Something which has value (v. 4)
In verse 4, Solomon refers to the value of Wisdom as being like that of the value of silver. This precious metal has been used in jewelry for thousands of years, including a piece which is now on my left ring finger. I wear a sterling silver band for several reasons, one of which to serve as a reminder that God’s Wisdom is something to be cherished. If only I had listened to the teachings of this Word and my parent’s concerns before taking my course of actions last year! I would have saved myself so much heartache and regret!
Wisdom is worth seeking out; it is a treasure to obtain. The catch is this: you must be willing to sacrifice your personal agenda in order to journey to find this treasure. It was only after I sacrificed my lifestyle and my hurt to Christ that I was able to access the Lord’s Wisdom again. If you want this treasure, it must be the only thing you seek.
April 13th, 2018 at 11:41 am
Hello Katie…good blog and thank you for sharing your experience. We learn from our mistakes and failures. This is why God created time. If we only had instantaneous, micro-second instructions from God (He lives in a timeless environment)…these truths and hard-earned lessons would not sink in.
He is preparing believers for an eternity…like oatmeal that sticks to our ribs…the lessons God that works with in our lives are designed to last forever.
Also, you will discover that you now have something valuable to share with others going through a similar challenge…and God will set-up divine appointments for you to speak words of life into others.
God bless you, Barton
April 13th, 2018 at 8:02 pm
Haven’t we all missed some of the Wisdom of Proverbs only to learn them later in life.
April 13th, 2018 at 10:17 pm
Great post, Katie. Love you.
April 14th, 2018 at 4:17 am
I love your honesty, Katie! And the wisdom you share here as a result of your experience is absolutely profound! Thank you! God bless you big time!
April 14th, 2018 at 9:25 am
Good to see you over here, Kaie